I'm that favorite sweater

as sure as the oropharynx.

2009-03-15T06:27:07Z

I want to want.

shadow_geek @ 2009-02-26T13:09:00

2009-02-26T18:11:19Z

yep.

2008-11-06T18:20:18Z

well, that's sort of unfortunate.

shadow_geek @ 2008-01-20T17:02:00

2008-01-20T22:14:22Z

Death is alot like love.
The first time you feel it, the waves of the moment wash over you.
Even when you sleep your body keeps the movement.
The ongoing dance,
Your insides are like a ship lost at sea.
You don't know what will become of you
or your companions.
This deep weight of sadness
of what you once were
of how its lost forever in some distant land.
How you can only go forward
farther and farther away from familiarity.
Hope.
Its the tugging that hurts.
Something wanting to solidify its place in your heart.
Someone or something anchoring you to a memory of home.
When you think of it,
the waves inside of you start thrashing
Your throat is unable to scream
Your eyes burn.
You melt.
Rocking yourself to sleep.
It's finding the most primitive part of you.
It's being vulnerable.
It's letting go.

That is life.

shadow_geek @ 2007-05-10T16:25:00

2007-05-10T20:26:33Z

TWO STEPS FORWARD TWO STEPS BACK

The market’s vision of cha-cha-cha
BY RICHARDN.
CROFTCROFTFINANCIALGROUP

Since the beginning of the year, North American stock markets have been doing their version of the cha-cha-cha. Two steps forward… two steps backward. And it may become the norm rather than the exception, through the next two years.

First Show.

2006-08-29T22:28:52Z

For those who missed it:

In honor of the girl with the mohawk and the hairy green pits.

2006-06-26T04:09:31Z

The Academny is ...

Motion City Soundtrack

From Autumn to Ashes

Robots and Butterflies (R&B)

I don't know who these people were, heh.

State Radio

Against Me!

Saves the Day

The tallest safety hazard I've seen to date.

Today was the funeral; Tomorrow is the burial.

2006-05-09T04:58:50Z

shadow_geek @ 2006-05-07T12:54:00

2006-05-07T16:55:08Z

My grandmother died today.

C'mon ..

2006-02-12T04:45:41Z

Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, some thing you have always wanted to tell me - anything. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like.

shadow_geek @ 2006-01-24T18:12:00

2006-01-25T00:18:45Z

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(red blue hot cold)

A lot has happened recently - injury, death, acquiring knowledge. I would usually tend to write about them, make a nice little entry out of the whole thing, but it just hasn’t compelled to that point yet. Instead I’m not going to write another poem, just me rambling on about things. Nothing really “well-written” or creative today …
One thing that I’d like to mention is that I don’t think it’s immature of me to express myself. I get stressed like any other person, I worry about my grades, I worry what the teacher may think of me .. and I realize that not all of those things need to be focused on, but I do, I shouldn’t, but I do. I’m a nervous wreck sometimes, and I hate how inconsistent my mood may seem to some people. One period I’m more talkative, for example, than others, but maybe it’s just that I don’t know how to be calm? Or I need to “slow down” (sit down and relax)? People might be under the impression that maybe I do take things slow, that I don’t try at all .. It’s just all this work is sometimes overwhelming and I feel as if I really don’t know what I’m doing. This isn’t some plea for help, but w/e.
Okay, so “maybe” I can be broken down easily (!?) and yet pressure and stress brings me to do things – school work, etc. I have no idea if that could be changed but still .. I’m not going to become some emotionless enigma of my former self so that no one has to deal with me. No one really doesn’t have any obligation to hear me out, and for those that do, thank you. And for those that have no idea what’s going on, you don’t need to know .. HAHA (pft, I’m going to be alright kid)
Who are you to tell me I have to go somewhere when it could just as easily be done at a later time? I mean if you have nothing to do with your fuckin’ time then that’s fine, but I have places to go to. It’s not to the great extent of “if no one sees me then do I really exist?” but it does make me feel better when I see certain individual(s). I really never considered it as being dependent on someone, although that’s what I’ve been told is going on. I “place too much of myself emotionally when it comes to relationships with people.” How else am I suppose to go about things? – I’ve never understood that. If I care about someone (higher than an acquaintance, of course) I’m not going to take anything for granted just so I “don’t get hurt.” That makes no sense. Everything is taken into consideration - phone calls, conversation, mannerisms. Yeah, I’m silly.
Hm, I let myself be led on because I give up.
“Go, whatever, it doesn’t matter anymore”
And you’re starring back at me completely unaware of how annoyed I am of you. I’m not always displaying my emotions, but the least, I would think, you’re capable of is realizing that you need to fuck off. I’m going to do what I think I have to do. This isn’t happening again. :D Although the rest of the emotional rollercoaster might be up for some fixing, nothing isn’t going to change too much .. I’m not dead yet - I’m taking that as a good sign ..

HAH

2006-01-08T21:55:57Z

Qoute of the Day:

Brain - "Pinky, Are you pondering what I'm pondering?"

Pinky - "Well, I think so Brain ..But if they call them sad meals kids won't buy them"

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Want to buy an emu?

Happy New Year, kids

2006-01-02T04:32:32Z

!!! 2006 !!!

(and that is all.)

:)

'twas an interesting night ..

2005-12-21T06:22:30Z

-fin-

Hi; I can hear you.

2005-12-10T22:04:52Z

WOOOO \m/

2005-11-29T22:31:28Z

Note: Comment Anonymously folks, and do get it right the first time because I get your comments as an email and that defeats the purpose hehe :)

p.s. That doesn't mean I have a god-complex

p.p.s. I bet [ a # ] of people will comment, augh

p.p.p.s. *shrugs*

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Dear ______,

You make me ________. You should _______. Someday I will ______. You = ________. If I saw you now I'd __________. I would build a _______ just for you. I would get your name tattooed on my __________. If I could sing you any song it would be _________. We could drink __________ under the stars. My love for you is like that of ____________.

Love,
[insert anything but your name here]

(P.S. ______________.)

good feeling :D

2005-11-08T23:21:31Z

:D

2005-10-20T21:14:18Z

*giggles*

and it all started out with a nap ..

2005-10-04T00:26:35Z

when i got home from school, i went to go take a nap because i was REALLY tired.
apparently, my brother is an opportunist.

i never even noticed he did this until i went to get my digital camera. HAH

a little somethin' from the world wide web.

2005-09-21T20:02:50Z

NATURE'S HARMONIC
SIMULTANEOUS 4-DAY
TIME CUBE